I know all of everyone that is LDS and has someone serving a mission from a sibling, best friend, boyfriend whatever you have, has seen this.

If you haven't seen this and are affiliated with any type of missionary you may cry if you are anything like me.

But with the anticipation of a best friend coming home in 2 weeks, watching this just increased my anxiety level to a 50 on a scale of 1 to 10
That was a bad idea on my part. Opps you win some you lose some right?

Two Years from Hailey Haugen Devine on Vimeo.

There is nothing I love more than to get the mail for the day and see a letter in there for Jackee..

but a slight problem the only way you're going to get letters, is if you write back.

I used to be good with writing letter but everyday goes by and it just gets harder!

I don't know how they used to do it in the old days were they had to use fancy pens and write letters for communication.. oh ya there wasn't Facebook to distract them. Guilty

I have also been thinking how the heck did Noah write a letter everyday for a year.. I know he loved Ali and all but I feel like I love all my guys friends on missions too!!

So in conclusion I'm setting these next few days to write back all my friends

Its go time (:

watch none will write back cause there all getting to the point where the work is more important. 

I guess I'm okay with that tho.

 Happy Birthday Babe!

This boy turned 20 yesterday!

Sure did miss him A LOT!! 

But couldn't be happier for him out serving the lord!

This picture was from last year, we spent his birthday weekend in bear lake!

It was seriously so much fun spending time with him and our friends.

rewind please?? Just for a weekend!

Yesterday day all day I just thought I want to take him to breakfast, lunch, and dinner and give him presents and cuddle with him and give him lots of hugs and kisses.. It was a happy sad day for me!! BUT.. He is doing amazing work in Colombia and being an amazing missionary!! 

Good news he got his birthday package from me so I was very happy about that! I got him a tie, basketball shorts, beef jerkey, a tape, and copied letters of all the letters I have received from his best friends. He said he loved it so I'm very happy!

I love this boy more and more everyday!!

and hope he had an amazing birthday. I am sure he did!

boyfriend

My girl Hannah.

She is my friend, we are great friends

We both live in Bountiful and not many other people live here

We figured we both like to go to the DI

and be domestic, like make stuff (she is better at it tho)

We decided we are each others boyfriends

&&neither of us can get boyfriends cause we need to stick with each other

we like to eat bad, it is cool! but we say we are going to work out.

well never happens. one of these days maybe

We sometimes have to resort to muddy puddles.. not that fun.

we both have missionaries.. and they are boy really really great guys

so yeah she is awesome and I kind of would die without her right now

shes a real catch.

decided to make like a 5 minute Provo trip

we eat reall good.. uhmm

Hungerrr

Okay so I'm very late on this book.. but, finally I just read the 1st of 3 books of

The Hunger Games

I'll just say it is great.. I loved the book and cant wait to read the rest

I'm not a reader.one bit but I read this is in a week

First book I have read all the way through well sense the Twilight Series.

Yup that is saying something!!

Speaking of twilight I can not wait for 

Breaking Dawn Part 1

I haven't decided what I am more excited for, the movie or Elder Bennys year mark..

Ahh ya! Life is great by the way!!

Happy Sunday (: and Happy labor day as well enjoy it!

Frustrated

I think this picture sums up my life right now.. Well it only needs to be a couple pages (I dont hate the world at all) and maybe be called Girls I want to punch/scream in the face.. but of course I really wouldnt cause i'm too scared.

Life kind of has had me grow up these past few months and has made me learn ALOT

It gets really frustrating when..

you're 19 and you're the grown up of a situation, dealing with moody people, having to hear gossip from friends and strangers, straight up liars, people that think there life is only a one way street it takes two people for almost everything. People that annoy you.

I dont want to end this post on that though because honestly I also feel very blessed! I have some very amazing people in my life.. I have two very loving parents who i grow to love more each day and I have a great relationship with them. I have some siblings that I can talk to anytime and are always there to listen. I have amazing friends that I can have fun with and that I know will always be there for me. I am able to talk to my best friend every monday.

So to say the least there is whole lot more good in my life than bad but sometimes you just got to vent.

right?

Just some recent pic's of me and my friends that I pretty much love(:

Me and my girl hannah!.. pretty much my new best friend! I would die without her right now!

babe.. he had to move to provo! :/ this kid is seriously the best

beccooo! She is awesome.. we scoot

love em!

me and kendall! uhh yeah she is the best

So yup I have the best friends! (:

Kelon

So Wednesday one of my best friends Kelon left!! I was really sad not going to lie, he has become one of my best through out the years! We have been friends sense 8th grade or so but ever sense our junior year in high school we have become best friends.. He has been best friends with Benny ever sense they were little so when me and Ben started dating we have become so close. I am SO happy for that! Kelon is seriously the best friend to everyone! he is always there for you and always so nice! If he ever says anything that he think could be interpreted mean he will be so quick to apologize and make sure he didn't make you feel bad! he has been there for me for everything.. Whenever I needed someone to talk to he would always be there and be willing to hear me vent to him about whatever! he has especially been such a good friend to me ever sense Ben left! making sure to always call me and make sure everything is good! I'm so extremely lucky to have him as a best friend! I will miss him so much! I'm so excited for him though, he is going to do amazing in Paraguay! They are so lucky to have him and I couldn't be more excited for him and this two year journey he is taking! LOVE YOU KAYO!!

After kelons baptism sophmore year.. We are babies here!!

Don't mind my awful choice is hair style and clothes ha!

After Kelons Farwell.. wish we could have gotten a petter picture but oh well!!

Bear Lake!

All throughout highschool.. all the good friends a few weekends went up to bear lake and stayed at one of our good friends Prestons cabin!! It was always so much fun, we had such a fun time with all of our friends!! Last October we went up for Bennys birthday weekend and I thought that would be the last time I would go up there but I was wrong.. We went up there last week just Preston, Kelon, and I forkind of like a last little trip before they left! It was such a fun time to just hang out up there, it is so pretty and his cabin has the best view from there deck! I love it up there! We went out on the lake and boated no way did me or Kelon get in the water.. WAY too cold but P and his family sure did they love it!! His family is so sweet to let us go up there, they are one of the nicest family I know! After that night we went hot tubbing, and pretty much just talked about everything! I love these two boys they have seriously been the best guy friends I could ask for.. They have been there for me every second that I have needed a friend especially been so sweet to me ever sense Ben has left!! I'm so lucky to have them in my life and so sad to see them leaving me now too!! 

This is probably one of the funniest video well me and kelon think so at least.. on the way home from bear lake I put my camera up the dash and videoed us driving home.. I am not sure how they did not notice me put it up there but it turned out to be a funny video!! Don't mind us all grungy looking and the extremely weird faces we pull.. and my annoying voice!! oh good time!

Tomorrow..

TOMORROW I'm SO excited for tomorrow I get to hear this cute boys voice :)

yup that is all!! His cute sister Erica made a cute blog for him that has his emails home and some videos! www.elderbenbelnap.blogspot.com He is doing so great i'm so happy for him!! Love you babe!

Tis The Season(:

I hope everyone's holiday season was as good as mine!! I love the Christmas season! I loved being home for Christmas and spending time with my family and friends! It was especially great to be with my family. We were able to be together Christmas Morning, we ate breakfast and opened all of our gift together! My favorite part is seeing my nieces and nephew open all their present and they would get so excited! My parents, brother and I also went and saw my Grandma and Grandpa Field, and My Grandpa Broderick. It was great seeing all of my family(: So Christmas was a success at the Broderick house, we all had a great holiday!!

I babysat Kennadee and Ryker a few days before Christmas!! They are coloring pictures for Benny. Kennadee wrote Ben a letter saying "Ben, I hope you have a Merry Christmas Love- Kennadee" She wrote it all by herself she needed a little help on Merry Christmas though. It is crazy to me how big she has gotten!!

For Christmas I sent Benny the 12 days of Christmas! So he had a gift everyday to open for 12 days!! I sent him lots of treat and little dorky missionary gift!! For Christmas Day he had letter from all of his good buddies and I to read, and pictures from Kenn and Ryker. I Hope he liked it (:

Speaking of Benny.. I will just say I have thee CUTEST Missionary (: I am very lucky! Before he left on his mission me and him went Christmas shopping for his whole family. He left me with the presents to do the wrapping and giving them to his Family! On Christmas I hurried and dropped the presents off to him family! It was great to see them too! I love his family!! I wasnt quite sure if benny did the same thing for me but I didn't really mind as long as a got a Christmas letter I was content.. Well Thursday before Christmas, Preston one of our best friends came over and gave me a present.. I was SO SO happy it was a Price Jersey! I have been wanting one way way bad, for a very long time!! My brother Jax was actually looking for one for me for Christmas but he couldn't find one anywhere it worked out perfect (: His mom also came by with a present for me to open on Christmas day, he also got me a bracelet and a picture holder with a B on it. It iss really cute if you can tell I am wearing the bracelet in the picture too!! I feel so lucky!! He is so awesome, and he is such an awesome missionary too! He has only been out 6 week and has grown SO much, and is working so hard!! He is such a great example to me and our friends!!

This is my adorable Mommy and I. These are our matching Christmas Jammies. This picture was sort of a joke cause I am so tall and She is so short so we were messing around! (: I love this lady, she is an awesome mom and best friend to me!!

Baby B and the present the size of him!! I think this picture is adorable He is so cute!! Pretty sure he liked destroying the wrapping paper more than all of his presents!

Halle and Grandpa!! Isn't she adorable?? Yup she is, I love this little one!! I am just in love with her little structure and cute voice!! Of course I love my dad too he is pretty awesome himself!!

Well Happy Holidays everyone!! (:

Not goodbye, See you later

Well I thought it would only be appropriate to make my first blog about the boy that has changed my life.

 Benny has been a huge part of my life for almost the past 3 years! He has changed my life in so many ways that I couldn't be more grateful!! He made me smile all the time and he just made me the happiest person!! Seems like just yesterday that we started hanging out and telling each other we liked each other, going on our first dates, going to dances!! Hopefully this next two years will go by as fast as those three!

Our last day with each other couldn't have been better. Saying goodbye is not fun no matter what, but our last day was perfect! First thing we went to the temple together, it was awesome I love how the temple makes you feel I felt a lot of peace there it was such a great experience! We than went to Walmart and got all the last little things he needed! It was so fun, he was being a dork at the store and making me laugh like he always does! We than went and got lunch at Firehouse Pizza! We have gone there for a few dates so we thought it would be a good "last supper" he liked to say! We had such a good time than we went back to to his house almost got everything packed and his mom said once is two rooms were clean he could get a nap in, that got him going he was so tired from going to the temple at 5:30 that morning than with me and our busy day! So we hurried and finished than went and watched some TV. I cuddled him until he fell asleep than I had to get ready for the night!! He picked me up 6:30 in his suite and tie he was wearing to the MTC the next day, it made me so happy cause he was wearing the tie I got him one time for a game, probably the cheapest tie he has. It was really cute of him than we started walking to the and we didn't even get to the car without me starting to cry, figuress.. I knew that this would be a very hard night! we went and drove up to one of our spots! I gave him a very long letter, a sample thing of the perfume I wear the most and than a book of picture of all of our friends!! He really loved the picture book, so that made me really happy. We talked for a little than headed down to his house, I wanted to tell his family good luck the next day and see them all! We all hung out and talked for a little than it was time for him to take me home. When that time came my heart seriously dropped, I couldn't really see my life the next 2 years without Benny. I gave him a huge hug in his drive way before we left I didn't want to detach myself from him. When we got to my house we were listening to church music in his car and Tell we meet again came on it was very fitting to the situations! He walked me up to the door, and we gave each other a hug and kiss goodbye! I'm going to miss those! He told me see you in 2 years i'll be knocking on this door to come pick you up. I cant wait for the day!!

He is going to do awesome in Colombia! I'm so happy that he is taking 2 years of his life to give those Colombian people eternity! I'm so proud of his choices that he has made so that he could serve a mission!! I'm so grateful I have been able to have him in my life, he has taught me so much and always making sure I'm doing what I am supposed to do! He has so much faith in me, he always made me feel like I could conquer anything! Thanks for everything benny! Thanks for all the smiles, laughs, and tears! Thanks for always calling me pretty. Thanks for always listening to me and knowing just what to say, Thanks for understanding me like no else does! Thanks for your testimony, it has helped me grow stronger! Thanks babe for the most amazing 2 years and 8 months! GOOD LUCK BABE!!! I love you!! watch out Colombia Benny is one his way (: