Its November and it is the month to be grateful!! 

I'll try to do some post of people and things I am grateful for! 

Like today i'm grateful for,,

when I feel good and am healthy.

I forgot what is like to be sick!

October 26, 2005

I was able to go to the temple with my parents and brother and sisters.

To be sealed for all time and eternity.

How amazing is that?

I love my family and I love this gospel.

I am truly grateful for it in my life & would be one lost soul without it.

I think about this day a lot pretty much all the time.

It makes me so excited to go back with my future hubby someday.

So that we can be together forever and have a forever family!

I am so happy that I know this to be true.

Some fun thing I remember at the top of my head of that day.

-Well I was 8th grade I believe and who isn't stoked to be checked out of school. I also was able to miss the Junior High Halloween dance.. I always had to go cause I was a cheerleader but I remember hating those things.

-I was able to get a really pretty white dress.. I remember being sad the temple had to get me a cover up that wasn't the cutest for the top but I got over it fast.

-Me and my brother had to wait in the nursery type deal at the bottom of the temple. Well we had to wait a while so we entertained ourselves with child games and coloring.. It was the only thing to make time go by faster.

-The lady that hung out with us and helped us, I remember being such a nice lady.. I don't think I have ever met a temple worker that is mean tho! 

(I wanna be that temple worker when i'm old, just play in the nursery)

-When the lady walked us up to the sealing room I remember thinking to myself this is the prettiest place ever. She told us a few thing that we saw. I don't remember the best but I do think about and cant wait tell I'm endowed some day and can refresh my memory.

Well the rest we can say was AMAZING. Such an amazing day! It really does mark one of the best days of my life and I'm truly grateful for being able to be sealed with my parent. eternal families are for real. I feel so blessed! I cant wait to be able to go through the temple again!

September 24, 2011

My adorable Niece Kennadee was able to be baptised and become a member of the church!! 

Such a special day for her and she looked so beautiful!! She has been talking about getting baptised for years now, no joke.. When my brother was on his mission she would be like when Jackson gets home and than another 2 years i'll be 8 and be able to get baptised.. The day finally came and when I asked her was it what you thought it would be she said it was better!!

I am so happy for this little one to make the decision to get baptised!! She loves this gospel and is such a great new member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints

On her baptism day! Doesn't she look so happy!!

On her 8th birthday I wanted to do something fun with her! So I decided to pick her up from school and take to the spa I work at give her a Pedi and Mani. She loved me massaging the lotion in her skin but everything else felt weird and she gotta pick a few colors to put on her nail and she loved it.. We had a good time!

Frustrated

I think this picture sums up my life right now.. Well it only needs to be a couple pages (I dont hate the world at all) and maybe be called Girls I want to punch/scream in the face.. but of course I really wouldnt cause i'm too scared.

Life kind of has had me grow up these past few months and has made me learn ALOT

It gets really frustrating when..

you're 19 and you're the grown up of a situation, dealing with moody people, having to hear gossip from friends and strangers, straight up liars, people that think there life is only a one way street it takes two people for almost everything. People that annoy you.

I dont want to end this post on that though because honestly I also feel very blessed! I have some very amazing people in my life.. I have two very loving parents who i grow to love more each day and I have a great relationship with them. I have some siblings that I can talk to anytime and are always there to listen. I have amazing friends that I can have fun with and that I know will always be there for me. I am able to talk to my best friend every monday.

So to say the least there is whole lot more good in my life than bad but sometimes you just got to vent.

right?

Just some recent pic's of me and my friends that I pretty much love(:

Me and my girl hannah!.. pretty much my new best friend! I would die without her right now!

babe.. he had to move to provo! :/ this kid is seriously the best

beccooo! She is awesome.. we scoot

love em!

me and kendall! uhh yeah she is the best

So yup I have the best friends! (:

Daddy (:

Well I know that everyone always says that they have the best dad out there!! I feel like I do too! He is the perfect dad to me and I couldn't think he is more perfect(: I'm so lucky to have such an amazing guys in my life! We definitely have our times where we may not be the happiest with each other but without a doubt in the end we will tell each other we love each other. I can talk to my dad about everything and i'm SO grateful that I have that kind of relationship with him! I love just sitting down talking to him about what I want in the future. I tell him what I want in a husband some day, what kind of mom I want to be, what things I wanna do with my life tomorrow and in 10 years. he listens to everything I have to say well most of the time (I sometimes talk his ear off though) and gives me some of the best advice! He is a funny guy, he always is cracking jokes and making me laugh! He knows me so well and knows when to joke around with me or when to give cranky Jackee space! What I am so grateful for is how he has raised me, he has shared his testimony with me and touched me with it! I don't know what I would do without the gospel in my life and am so grateful that he has always had me go to church sense I was just a little one and taught me what I know! He has brought the priesthood into my home and I am so happy for that! He is an amazing father to me!! I am SO grateful to be his baby girl(:

He's always watching after his kids

Always made sure to come to daddy daughter dates

A loving husband

Gave me my cheesy smile

Always taking his kids to fun places

AMAZING grandpa to grandchildren that just adore him

Always having a fun time and loves spending time with him family

not only an amazing dad to his kids but all of his second children too

Raised me in the church(:

Supported me through all the crazy years of cheerleading

LOVE YOU DADDY!! HAPPY FATHERS DAY(:

Kelon

So Wednesday one of my best friends Kelon left!! I was really sad not going to lie, he has become one of my best through out the years! We have been friends sense 8th grade or so but ever sense our junior year in high school we have become best friends.. He has been best friends with Benny ever sense they were little so when me and Ben started dating we have become so close. I am SO happy for that! Kelon is seriously the best friend to everyone! he is always there for you and always so nice! If he ever says anything that he think could be interpreted mean he will be so quick to apologize and make sure he didn't make you feel bad! he has been there for me for everything.. Whenever I needed someone to talk to he would always be there and be willing to hear me vent to him about whatever! he has especially been such a good friend to me ever sense Ben left! making sure to always call me and make sure everything is good! I'm so extremely lucky to have him as a best friend! I will miss him so much! I'm so excited for him though, he is going to do amazing in Paraguay! They are so lucky to have him and I couldn't be more excited for him and this two year journey he is taking! LOVE YOU KAYO!!

After kelons baptism sophmore year.. We are babies here!!

Don't mind my awful choice is hair style and clothes ha!

After Kelons Farwell.. wish we could have gotten a petter picture but oh well!!

mommy..

Happy mothers day to my amazing mom yesterday!! Pretty much this lady right here is just the greatest! I love her so much it is crazy and i'm so so grateful for all that she does for me! I am so happy that through the years me and my mom have gotten closer and closer! I can trust her with anything and she is always willing to help me out with whatever!! I love her to death and am so happy to have her as a best friend. She is an amazing mother and I hope that I can be half the mom she has been to me the past 19 years!! I love you mommy(:

Tomorrow..

TOMORROW I'm SO excited for tomorrow I get to hear this cute boys voice :)

yup that is all!! His cute sister Erica made a cute blog for him that has his emails home and some videos! www.elderbenbelnap.blogspot.com He is doing so great i'm so happy for him!! Love you babe!

Not goodbye, See you later

Well I thought it would only be appropriate to make my first blog about the boy that has changed my life.

 Benny has been a huge part of my life for almost the past 3 years! He has changed my life in so many ways that I couldn't be more grateful!! He made me smile all the time and he just made me the happiest person!! Seems like just yesterday that we started hanging out and telling each other we liked each other, going on our first dates, going to dances!! Hopefully this next two years will go by as fast as those three!

Our last day with each other couldn't have been better. Saying goodbye is not fun no matter what, but our last day was perfect! First thing we went to the temple together, it was awesome I love how the temple makes you feel I felt a lot of peace there it was such a great experience! We than went to Walmart and got all the last little things he needed! It was so fun, he was being a dork at the store and making me laugh like he always does! We than went and got lunch at Firehouse Pizza! We have gone there for a few dates so we thought it would be a good "last supper" he liked to say! We had such a good time than we went back to to his house almost got everything packed and his mom said once is two rooms were clean he could get a nap in, that got him going he was so tired from going to the temple at 5:30 that morning than with me and our busy day! So we hurried and finished than went and watched some TV. I cuddled him until he fell asleep than I had to get ready for the night!! He picked me up 6:30 in his suite and tie he was wearing to the MTC the next day, it made me so happy cause he was wearing the tie I got him one time for a game, probably the cheapest tie he has. It was really cute of him than we started walking to the and we didn't even get to the car without me starting to cry, figuress.. I knew that this would be a very hard night! we went and drove up to one of our spots! I gave him a very long letter, a sample thing of the perfume I wear the most and than a book of picture of all of our friends!! He really loved the picture book, so that made me really happy. We talked for a little than headed down to his house, I wanted to tell his family good luck the next day and see them all! We all hung out and talked for a little than it was time for him to take me home. When that time came my heart seriously dropped, I couldn't really see my life the next 2 years without Benny. I gave him a huge hug in his drive way before we left I didn't want to detach myself from him. When we got to my house we were listening to church music in his car and Tell we meet again came on it was very fitting to the situations! He walked me up to the door, and we gave each other a hug and kiss goodbye! I'm going to miss those! He told me see you in 2 years i'll be knocking on this door to come pick you up. I cant wait for the day!!

He is going to do awesome in Colombia! I'm so happy that he is taking 2 years of his life to give those Colombian people eternity! I'm so proud of his choices that he has made so that he could serve a mission!! I'm so grateful I have been able to have him in my life, he has taught me so much and always making sure I'm doing what I am supposed to do! He has so much faith in me, he always made me feel like I could conquer anything! Thanks for everything benny! Thanks for all the smiles, laughs, and tears! Thanks for always calling me pretty. Thanks for always listening to me and knowing just what to say, Thanks for understanding me like no else does! Thanks for your testimony, it has helped me grow stronger! Thanks babe for the most amazing 2 years and 8 months! GOOD LUCK BABE!!! I love you!! watch out Colombia Benny is one his way (: